Monday, February 23, 2009

pondering

Hi There!
I haven't posted for a while....a LONG while,true. Can one have writer's block about one's own life? It's not like there's anything absolutely fascinating about it, anyway....and my only follower is my blogophile daughter, so I'm not exactly depriving the public of any deep philosophical thoughts.
I was watching a movie tonight that was funny, sad, sweet ,...you know one of those stories that takes you through so many highs and lows that once the show is over you sigh deeply and start thinking about how good your life is in spite of all the little bumps in the road?OK, maybe more like ruts than bumps ,and an occaisional pit of dispair; but all in all, not truly awful. It made me start counting my blessings, and as trite as that sounds, I have decided to announce to one and all the things I am grateful for right this very moment.
I am grateful-beyond-belief that my mother's cancer was caught so early and I will have her a good bit longer. And that my dad, although he starts to wander back to his childhood, at least seems to be happy there. Lately he's been reciting poems and singing himself little songs, and is pleased as punch about it. He usually ends thems with a schoolboy giggle; if he's happy, I'm happy,you know? I have great kids,(and that includes you, Chris & Kirsten) amazing grandkids (they're all beautiful too-and funny and smart!) who put up with my hugs and kisses and love me anyway, grand dogs that think I am their personal property, loyal friends, a roof over my head, beautiful scenery on every side, subdivisions notwithstanding. I have a husband who secretly watches "chick flicks" with me and makes me coffee every morning and enjoys so many of the things I enjoy. Even though he doesn't always understand my passions (yarny things) he allows me space to obsess. He even brags about my masterpieces! We make a living and sometimes a little more. I have a cat that drools on me because she's so happy I'm home; no, it's not the drool (yech!)that pleases me, but that she misses me! After all the highest compliment a cat can give is choosing you as her "person". I am very appreciative that there are so many things that excite me. I mean, I could be one of those people who go through life not ever realizing that life is filled with richness. I like the way Sheryl Crow puts it, "It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you've got".
Maybe it's because spring is just around the corner that makes me enjoy each tiny bud I see in my garden. Maybe it's because I'm an incurable romantic. Maybe it's insane to want to feel so much joy when it means you inevitably have to deal with it's opposite, too. Me? I just think it's what makes life WORTH the living.